Oh -- I remember what I was going to say

Ok, so I remembered what it was I wanted to express in writing; life. Tonight I sat outside on my deck for about an hour and just discussed several important things w/ a good friend of mine and his girly-friend. For a multitude of reasons I haven't been hanging out w/ people to much last couple of weeks and it was very nice to sit down w/ friends and have a civilized discussion.

So life huh?? I guess I'll stick around to see where its going. The other day I came home from work and it being such a wonderful day I decided to take the bike out for a ride. This is one of my favorite pastimes and it is very, very therapeutic for me. Anyway, I took it down leesville, to waterlick to lawyers and turned right (going towards evington), I then proceeded to go as fast as the bike would take me (about 150 or so) down the long straight stretch. Winter riding is usually not as fast for whatever reason and it had been months since I had gone at such a speed. Afterwards I thought; man a deer in the rd, someone doesn't see me when they pull out in there driveway...something in the road...I'd be dead; no question about it...

I have lived a good life; but I have not worked hard enough. There are so many weakspots that I need to address in my day to day life. I'm weak in Christ; very weak....I once was so strong, where did it go?? Why can't I get it back?

I've been spending a lot of time praying and generally just thinking about a certain situation in my life, something that is very important to me. Why can't I trust G-d to act in this situation and have his will be done for me? Why am I begging Him to just solve this issue now, my way. Life is full of faith, religion is full of faith...Why can't I be full of faith?

In the 17 chapter, verse 20 Matthew Records a story where Yeshua rebukes his disciples because they have such little faith. He then continues by saying they could move mountains with the faith the size of a mustard seed.

I realize I'm kinda taking the concept of faith very broadly and I realize that what the Messiah was saying is different than what I was saying; all I'm trying to get at is that a little faith goes a long, long way...

I'm praying for faith in many things in my own life...

hopefully not all of these blogs will be this serious -- It is just what I'm thinking about at the moment!!

(tommy)